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1月7日 Million Pound Match Up EntryWelcome to the Million Pound Match Up entry for Tara
![]() Who we are
![]() Tara and I are both Inventory Coordinators for U.S. Cellular
near Rockford, IL.Goals
Our fitness backgrounds are different but basically our goals are the same. Tara has had to fight to keep the weight off all her life due to a hereditary urge to binge. I, on the other hand, was born skinny and was tease relentlessly about it all the way through high school. Then the happy fat of married life got me. That happens when you don't go out dancing like I used to. I'm 5'8" and I would like to get back down to 135/140ish. Tara is close to 5'3" and wants to get to a body fat percentage that is truly healthy (the actual weight isn't that important). Tara and I are striving to be strong, fit and look damn good in a bikini.
Why we are entering this contest. Tara and I both love to watch the Biggest Loser
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1-15-2008....Tara
One thing that Suzanne didn't mention in the paragraphs above is that I have already lost roughly 18-20 lbs since August 07. I can't remember exactly how much I weighed before it really sunk in that I needed to do something about myself(mentally and physically). I know I was above 162 and growing
Once I get my mind retrained for what's right vs wrong, I'll be ok to step into an enviroment that is a weak dieters worst nightmare. My family has a huge problem with food. I should actually say we enjoy food because it resembles comfort, love, and family. Everytime we got together we would EAT and not just cause it was meal time. Another thing that I found myself doing was when I would go to my parents house every Sunday, my first reaction is to grab candy or whatever was out that "looked" good. Sometimes I didn't even want it, but my habit of eating at my parents over-ran my part of the brain that said "NO! What are doing???" I have always had a problem with extra weight and a bad view of myself, but I managed to hide most of it.. lol. I wouldn't call myself fat, but I know my fat percent is higher than what I want for myself. However back in August when I weighed around 162-165, I was considered "Obese" since I was 30lbs overweight. Ever since my dad had his first heart attack when I was 13 and I'm 27 now, I have looked at every food label that I ever came in contact with. I know most food nutriention content like the back of my hand. People come to and ask me.. What should I have? What's better for me? My mom uses me as her human calorie calculator. I can do it all in my head, just tell me what you had and how much...I'll get your calories and fat down pretty darn close. Speaking of my dad, one thing that my mom and I don't understand is that my dad has two heart attacks with numerous heart surgeries due to heart desease(from eating REALLY bad all his life), yet he continues to pick on food all day. Doctors tell him over and over that he needs to lose weight or... well you know(Bad things will happen). He claims he doesn't eat much, but he must if he weighs 265-270 for a man who is 5' 7" and in his 60's. We wonder if he stays at this weight... how can his body handle it? My dad just has a compulsion to eat out of the fridge just to have a few bites.
What he fails to see is that those few bites all day long add up to A LOT! There is no convincing him of this. He is just too stuborn to face the facts. My dad, my one sister, her daughter(my niece) and I have a genetic code embedded in our body that makes us want to eat and eat all day. It's not large meals, it's wanting to taste something to have something in your mouth. It's like you can't concentrate until you eat whatever it is that seemed to attack your brain right then. They say most cravings last 15 minutes and then it's over. Not in our case. It can last all day or continue onto the next(if you can last that long) and it drives you crazy. I kind of compare it to someone needing a fix in order to feel normal again. It's almost as if it's a survial skill. We want to keep eating... like were going to be hibernating bears. I think I would be a lot heavier if it weren't for me liking to exercise and be active. In the artical I have below.. it explains a lot about my problem with my mind and my perception of food. I try to explain this to "normal" eaters and they don't understand. Most people don't understand actually. A short food story... We took a family vacation when I was 10 or 11 to Colorado.
We started driving up the mountains and doing a lot of fun things.. but all I could do was gripe that I was hungry. Then one scenerio I even find funny now is we were all sitting at the picnic table eating breakfast at the camp ground the next day. I'm on my second big bowl of cereal ... as my mouth is still pretty full.. I asked my mom what we were eating for dinner. How food crazy is that!!! To go back even younger... I used to take my doll into the kitchen, thinking I was slick, hide a KitKat
bar into the diaper. I would then go back to my room and eat it. I would do that a couple times in a row. My mom never thought anything of it. She always assumed it was my dad eating them. I have told my mom and my family about how I would binge eat, but I still don't think they know what I'm capable of consuming at once. Only reason is because around them, I ate normal.. or even less. For example.. I think this was 7-8 years ago. I had done awesome with food all day, then something must of snapped on my way home. I had a whole wheat(the thick bread) P & J sandwich left over from lunch, so I ate that cuz I was hungry(completely normal right?). This is where it gets scary. I went thru the drive thru at McDonalds
(still don't know why) but I ordered........ a Mc Chicken Meal/ Double Quarter Pounder Meal and a Chocolate Shake. I managed to eat all of that in a 45 minute drive! THEN!! when I got home(still lived at parents) I didn't mention to them that I just ate all that(I didn't want ANYBODY to know), so I ate a bowl of vanilla ice cream. After eating all this... I went to my room and had to lay there and think "why in hell did I do that?" . I refuse to throw it up...so the next day I would hardly eat and I would run or go play soccer all day long. I don't do this type of thing anymore and I haven't in many years... but it still haunts me.1-17-2008
I'm getting a little frustrated. I got on the scale this morning and it was 2 lbs heavy... WTF! I thought I was gonna be cheering and proud of myself. This is the kinda stuff that makes binging wanna happen. I won't though. I better be 3lbs less in a couple days dang it.
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It's crazy to me how quickly my body self-esteem can be lowered by a couple comments. Usually I don't care what people have to say to me or about me. I feel if they have something negative to say, then they are not important in my life. But last night my boyfriend(Corey) made a statement about an actress he REALLY likes a lot and how hot she is. (I did not react well!)( I said some bad things) We got into a fight because I'm very outspoken and stand up for myself.. He sees it as I'm bitching and causing the fight. I think he got a little too comfortable with talking about other women's bodies. I think last night was too much for me to handle and it broke me down like a weak dam.
I know he looks at other women, which is totally normal and healthy.... but I don't want to hear about how he thinks they are HOT. I still feel confident in who I am and what my I'm about, but hearing Corey talk about other women... it puts my mind in a not so friendly place.1-25-2008
I can say I feel much better about myself after actually communicationg for once. I usually assume the worst and my mind takes over.. the green angry monster comes out. Back years ago this exact sistuation would of caused me to want to eat enough that I coluldn't move just to take away the hurt and anger I felt. This last I was forced to take a hard look at myself in a mental stand point. I realized there are things I need to change, even though I'm stubborn like no other! lol.
I know I'm losing weight very slowly, like 1 pound a week... but I'm just VERY happy that the scale is going down and not up! I'm at the lowest weight I've been in a LONG TIME. It feels really good! My partner Suzanne has been on vacation since last Saturday with her hubby. She won't be back till Monday. So I'm relying on my sister to keep me in check, also reading stories on everyone's page, it's very inpirational. I'm very excited, I'm heading up to Michigan to see Corey today. We need to see each other soon! It's been a month already since the last time. It's a 300 miles drive! YIKES. He is so worth it though. I can't bring snacks for the drive with me this time. I'm gonna eat before I leave, then a protein bar if I get hungry on the way there. I have to jump in the shower now and get ready to leave. I'M EXCITED!
1-30-2008
All I have to really say is...... trying to eat less ...... SUCKS *SS CHEEKS!
I did have a REALLY good time with Corey. I still behaved. I did have a few more drinks than I should of... but I was having too much fun
Don't mind the look on Corey's face. He thinks he can avoid lookin cute. I drove 303 miles on Friday morning and I was way too excited to wanna eat. I'm lucky that Corey likes to eat healthy and normal. Then again I drove 303 miles on Monday morning. I forgot to bring my lunch so I ended up hardly eating till 4pm. Lets say that didn't go well! I had a half binge. My mental state at that time was AWFUL! I just drove 300 miles away from my man(I get kinda depressed), my period was right around the corner, and I was STARVING! Talk about a bad combination. I actually went to McDonalds and got greasy greasy stuff. I think I still only had 1800 calories that day, but I could of done A LOT worse if it wasn't for this site and everyone supporting it.When I'm up at Corey's... it's like my own personal outdoors gym. He takes me EVERYWHERE! This last time he made me try snowshoeing... wow is that freakin hard. Then we went for a walk in snow that came up to my knees, which is Corey's damn ankles... LOL JK My legs were burning and I had to stop and lay in the snow. Corey would stand over me and act like Mr. Tough Man.
I was hoping no bears got a whiff of my sweaty arm pits. 2-01-08
Suzanne better get her butt on here or I'll have to show up at her house with a tape measure to tie her up till she spills her guts on this thing!
I've really noticed that If I find something to be happy about and keep that state of mind... food isn't so hard to turn down. I still have my moments where I could be staring at the start of a binge.
I really think this site has helped my mind think straight and have a positive outlook on the flaws of food. I know people see my pictures and think "She doesn't need to lose any!" "She's fine!".... well..... For those who say that.... I partly agree. However the other half.. You can't see behind the curtains. I struggle with the concept of food EVERYDAY. I think I read in someone's blogs about how alcoholics have to go cold turkey in order to break the habit and cycle of binge drinking. If that was the case with food, I'd be cured. Unfortunatly... we can't go cold turkey. We actually have to bite down while we receive the beating. It feels like a slow torture and it consumes your entire being. It's almost like your standing in front of a window, looking out to where you could be. You see yourself out in the open breathing air that seems to refreshen your soul. But, the window stops you dead in your tracks. How does a person find there way out? Where is the door? Why can't I see it? Is it only me who is numb to the fact that getting out to be free is a true reality? I know I've mentioned this before, but my family has a major food issue. I won't go into any great detail, but one of my sisters had an addiction worse than I and resolved it differently. It got bad for a while, then a guardian angel must have touched her heart. We have gotten so used to the term "dieting" that I don't think we even realize what it is anymore. It's funny during the holidays, we get together with lots of food and talk about everyone's world. The number 1 subject..... I'm going on a diet (TOMORROW)! We talk about our wishes and what we want with our bodies. We talk about how nice it would be to fit into certain things and not worrying about someone getting attacked by a flying button.
"The only that's stopping us from our dreams"? Who Knows? We lack that certain something that smacks us up-side the head and says" HELLO!" I know I can say this for a medical fact.. my thyroid is below average. Which means my metabolism works slower than most people. So for an example.. If I eat 1200 calories in a day, it would be like someone else having 1600. I may look like I don't have issues with myself, but I struggle every day to maintain what I have and to stay this way. I go to the gym, I dance around my apartment, I park way out from the entrance when I go to stores. I get a lot of exercise, because without it, I feel lost in my own skin. If I let my guard down to the point of not caring about myself like I should.. I seriously will gain 20lbs in 3 months. I'm talkin 20 freakin lbs of FAT! I've done this 2 times in 5 years. YO-YO!Our Weight and Measurement Chart![]()
![]() I identified with this entire artical. This is(Tara)
Are You Addicted to Food?
Science suggests that you can be hooked on chocolate, cookies, and chips. We have an 8-step program for regaining control
By Daryn Eller , Daryn Eller is a freelance writer in Venice, CA. Addiction--to food? It seems that everywhere you turn--dinner parties, your best friend's kitchen, bookstores, even talk shows--someone is confessing to having a food addiction. For years, experts scoffed at the notion that you could be hooked on chocolate or chips. Some still do. But recently, high-tech medical scans have revealed surprising similarities in the brain chemistry of drug addicts and chronic overeaters--resemblances that have caught the attention of the National Institute on Drug Abuse. The behavior of compulsive eaters also lends credence to the idea of food addiction--the cravings and preoccupation with food, the guilt, the way these overeaters use food to relieve bad feelings, and the fact that binges are frequently conducted at night or in secret. Now some addiction and obesity experts have started to use the "A" word in connection with food and even to speculate that it may be partly responsible for America's rising obesity rate. "Food might be the substance in a substance-abuse disorder that we see today as obesity," says Mark Gold, MD, chief of addiction medicine at the University of Florida College of Medicine. "If you ask some of the questions that are used to diagnose drug abuse--for instance, 'Do you continue to use the substance despite its negative effects?' or 'Do you have a preference for more refined substances?'--and then replace substance with food, it's not all that difficult to imagine that food addictions exist."
Blame It on the Brain People like Littleton have long been accused of lacking willpower. But research at the US Department of Energy's Brookhaven National Laboratory in New York suggests they may be missing something else instead: adequate brain receptors for dopamine, a chemical that is part of the brain's motivation and reward system. "Dopamine is the chemical that makes you say aah," says Gene-Jack Wang, MD, clinical head of positron emission tomography imaging at Brookhaven and leader of a series of studies investigating the brain chemistry of chronic overeaters. "It gets us to go over and grab something that will make us feel good."
In 2001, Wang and his colleagues, Volkow among them, compared the brain scans of obese and normal-weight volunteers, counting up dopamine receptors. Obese people, Wang realized, had fewer dopamine receptors--and the more obese they were, the fewer of these crucial receptors they had. In fact, he says, the brains of obese people and drug addicts look strikingly similar: "Both have fewer dopamine receptors than normal subjects." It's possible that drug use or compulsive overeating actually lowers the number of dopamine receptors. But it's also possible that some people are born with fewer--and if that's the case, say researchers, it could explain a lot. If overeaters or drug addicts are short on receptors for the aah chemical, they might not respond as readily to social interaction, art, sex, and other pleasures that ought to make them feel good. And that could be the reason they're driven to consume things that prompt dopamine's release--like illicit drugs (the most potent activator) or foods high in fat, sugar, and possibly salt. "If you have someone who is not responsive to natural reinforcers, that person may be more vulnerable to taking drugs," Volkow says. "If you get stimulated only by food, guess what happens? You can easily fall into patterns of compulsive eating." What the Compulsion Feels Like It doesn't take a brain scan to see the similarities between someone addicted to drugs or drink and a compulsive overeater. Like the alcoholic who continues to drink despite seeing her life crumbling around her, the person with the food addiction will consume food to the detriment of her social and family life. She may know that her eating is harming her health, but it doesn't matter, says Gold.
"Like cocaine addicts who can't leave any cocaine behind, food addicts eat until no food is available," says Gold. "You might say, 'Yeah, I did that on Thanksgiving.' But food addicts do this all the time." Is It Nature...or Nurture? Addiction and obesity both run in families, and experts believe that genetic components account for at least some of a person's vulnerability. But animal research also suggests that the environment--mainly, how often you're exposed to an addictive substance--can shift brain neurochemistry, increasing the likelihood of food addiction. One hint that environment plays a role comes from studies in which animals were repeatedly given cocaine: Frequent use actually decreased the number of dopamine receptors, says Wang.
If that's the case, we live in an environment perfectly designed to nurture food addiction. For decades, food-industry scientists have been working hard to figure out how better to hook people, claims David L. Katz, MD, MPH, director of the Yale-Griffin Prevention Research Center in Derby, CT, and author of The Flavor Point Diet. Manufacturers now excel at hitting the sweet spot--making us crave more and more of a food. "In a supermarket recently, I actually found a pasta sauce that, serving for serving, contained more sugar than a chocolate fudge sauce, though the sweetness was hidden because the pasta sauce was so salty," Katz says. "The question is, why would anybody pour a packet of sugar over their pasta? And the answer is that if you get used to that much sugar, another pasta sauce will taste too bland. The food industry wants us to need more and more of the substance to feel satisfied, so we'll go out and buy more and more of it." Getting Straight Whether you look outside or inside yourself for the determination to stop your destructive behavior, researchers agree that it's important to recognize that you can change. High-fat, high-sugar foods may trigger some of the same brain effects as drugs like cocaine or heroin, but their impact isn't as powerful. While it may feel at times like a runaway train, here are eight steps you can take to get back on track. 1. Don't go cold turkey Although treatment for life-threatening drug or alcohol addiction generally requires abstinence, an all-or-nothing approach is impossible for food addicts--everyone has to eat. Besides, some weight loss experts believe that such rigid thinking can make you crave the offending food more than ever. 2. Control your home environment Just as someone with an alcohol problem shouldn't buy a magnum of champagne, you shouldn't overstock your kitchen, says Gold. "You have to assume that every food or drink you buy will end up in your mouth. You'll see a TV commercial or some other trigger, and that food will end up in your mouth." Exercise purchase and portion control, Gold advises. 3. Temper temptation Sometimes it's not just a food that sets you off but also the place in which you eat it--and that's why putting yourself in a situation where you used to eat excessively can be a recipe for trouble. Ex-drug addicts face this problem all the time, reports Marcia Levin Pelchat, PhD, a research scientist at Monell Chemical Senses Center in Philadelphia. "Going back to the old neighborhood often triggers a strong craving," she says. 4. Retrain your brain In order to be satisfied with two cookies instead of an entire bag, you need to change the way your brain sees food on the plate, says Gold. First, switch to smaller plates and bowls to automatically reduce portion sizes. "This can make people very distraught because the brain looks at the smaller portions and decides they're not enough," says Gold. "But over time, the brain gets used to it." 5. Adjust your tastebuds One of the best ways to gain control over your eating is to restore your sensitivity to flavors, says Katz. You can do it without depriving yourself: If sugar is your downfall, keep sugar cookies in your diet, but when picking prepared foods that aren't supposed to be sweet--such as pasta sauce, bread, and chips--look for ones without added sweeteners. Check ingredient labels for all the names that sugar goes by, including fructose, dextrose, and corn syrup (for a list of sugar's aliases, read "Find the Hidden Sugars"). 6. Exercise regularly Milky Ways and Big Macs aren't the only things that satisfy the pleasure centers of your brain--so does exercise. In animals, at least, research has found that it increases dopamine levels and raises the number of dopamine receptors in the brain. 7. Learn to eat only when you're hungry One classic tool that weight loss experts use to teach people how to better manage their appetite is the hunger scale. The scale ranges from 0 to 10, with 0 being ravenously hungry and 10 being overstuffed. "A food addict's goal is to stay away from either of these extremes," says McQuillan. Eat when you begin to feel hungry (2 or 3 on the scale) and stop when you feel comfortably satisfied (5 or 6). Though it's obvious that you don't want to eat to an overstuffed 10, using the scale to gauge when you should start munching is important, too: If you wait until you're at 0, you may eat all the way up to 10. 8. Deal with your emotions Even if a brain scan at Wang's lab were to show that you have a physiological basis for food addiction, it's likely that there would be an emotional element, too. It's important to stop using food to cope with your feelings, says McQuillan.
How strong are your food cravings? You might have a food addiction if any of these descriptions fit.
You continue to overeat even though you know it's harming your health and possibly your family and social life; you hide out and eat alone; you feel compelled to finish all the food in your line of sight (or house); you eat to the point of pain or discomfort. Also consider the following four questions. They're an adaptation of the CAGE questionnaire, a tool used to diagnose alcoholism. "You really need to answer yes to only two items to indicate that you may have a problem," he says. 1. Have you ever felt the need to Cut down on your eating? Many people overeat on occasion; the difference is that you feel that if you don't ration yourself, you will completely lose control. 2. Have you ever been Annoyed by criticism of your eating? If you get upset when anyone brings up what or how much you consume, it may mean that you are too attached to eating. 3. Do you feel Guilty about your eating? It builds up, because at every meal you say you're going to control yourself--and you fail. 4. Have you ever needed an Eye-opener? You may wake up in the morning and feel compelled to consume. "We have patients who get up in the middle of the night and eat," Gold says. "They say, 'I finished a cake--I don't know how I did it.'" |
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